the end of a bad year

seriously. this has been the year filled with turmoil. been living in a bed of rose petals for the past 18 years only to realise that there are pricks and thorns below the soft marroon petals. however as every other adult will say, we will grow as we fight through difficulties and hardships, so i think i am a more mature person now. i understood what 'life gets increasingly difficult and may even become distasteful as we grow older' means. i am only 19 and i am saying this what will happen when i am 30 HAHAHAHA. i will be a millionaire. HAHAHAHAH

i am glad that now almost everything had been settled. definitely there were some pleasant surprises here and there. at the last day of the year i hope i can just listen to good music lazing on the couch in the drizzling afternoon reading a book of harry potter. but NO! have to work on new year's eve so have to go sleep in the afternoon.......
still hope it rains though...

ok so while you guys have a great time partying and counting down at the major streets and shopping centres and people's houses, remember that i am working hard to keep singapore safe K? HAHA.
enjoy your last day of the year and have a wonderful 2007!

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园游会
周杰伦
琥珀色黄昏像糖在很美的远方

你的脸没有化装我却疯狂爱上

思念跟影子在傍晚一起被拉长

我手中那入场圈陪我数羊

薄荷色草地芬芳像风没有形状

我却能够牢记你的气质跟脸庞

冷空气跟琉璃在清晨很有透明感

像我的喜欢被你看穿

摊位上一朵艳阳我悄悄出现你身旁

你慌乱的模样我微笑安静欣赏

我顶着大太阳只想为你撑伞

你靠在我肩膀深呼吸怕遗忘

因为捞鱼的蠢游戏我们开始交谈

多希望话题不断园游会永不打烊

气球在我手上我牵着你瞎逛

有话想对你讲你眼睛却装盲

连蛋糕跟你嘴角果酱我都想要尝

园游会影片在播放

这个世界约好一起逛

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merry christmas and happy new year

what's up with the vacuum between 22-28dec jianhao?

sorry for the lag.
i did xmas eve duty with the whole team and it was an unforgetable night. time passed unbearingly slow as long and i stood on the watch tower outside ngee ann city looking aimlessly at the totally jammed crowd below us. how i wished i was at home instead of looking at all these weird ppl who came here to squeeze and spray foam at each other!!! luckily the duty ended earlier than expected.

had lotsa fun carolling with vjchoir at raffles hotel on the 25th! yup it was really great meeting up with long-time-no-see friends. now i know how many more/less pimples you have on your faces and whether you had changed your hair partings! hehe
reunion at the hotel lobby was touching with more than a hundred people singing and humming to the same melody, same lyrics. what spoilt the mood was my runny nose and mr johnny, who was standing beside me, with his hilarious antics and weird voice projection techniques (he sure sounded like an old mamasan)! haha ok la shouldn't scold him cuz he is REALLY funny!

carolling

everyone go and watch carolling at raffles hotel, ritz carlton hotel, and hyatt hotel by vjchoir and victoria chorale. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
o incredibly nice weather in singapore isn't it!? windy and cooling...makes you feel refreshed! i realised that i miss carolling lots. BUT there are more extra duties coming up all the way till new year so my friends i can only go on the 25th. BAHHHH dunno if i will be able to wake up in time for the first session at hyatt or not............
had this 'productivity, quality and work economics' course at civil service college at buono vista which is very far away from bishan. well mainly throughout the course we would listen intently to what the 73 year-old lecturer have to say about his life experiences and from point to point he will draw exaggerated conclusions to link up with the teaching points in the worksheets and i found that pretty amusing. he also got to teach 'please migrate to australia' on the 2nd day of course. AHA. the most consoling part of everything was that i got to met up with edwin and titus during the course. cuz usually we wouldn't have time to meet and talk thus those 3 days were really precious. however i think we spent most of the time complaining about work!! we went to holland village for lunch on the 3rd day and nasi lemak with barley drink was fantastic. :D

i am so tired

because today was a busy day.
and also because i came home at 12 plus this morning.
had chorale practice at siglap at 3 until 6. then a few of us went for dinner at this megumi japanese restaurant which serves rather nice food and beer, and all the tenors' food were paid by yin chuin yay yin chuin is the best! hahahah ok then we went to katong mall for awfully chocolate's ice cream and cake, and this big bunch of adults decided to go to the arcade at bugis. HAHA i realised that being in the arcade was still an enjoyable experience. we played racing and shooting games. however the most hilarious thing was watching yc beat the drums. :P he is so funny naturally, so laughable haha.
ok hope to hang out more.

I like cool, windy mornings

yep gonna go for my first chorale practice in ages later in the afternoon.

the eyes which saw death

smack on is now more mature, more understanding towards life.
i shadn't hide my fears anymore.
when nadiah and i reached the corridor outside the unit i was tell myself 'uh-oh' this is really IT.
an uncle then rushed by us holding a bunch of joss sticks, with his fingers pinching his nose, so that the smell could be mitigated by that of the burning joss sticks. ok la it was necessary but abit too much right it made everyone teared almost instantly.
when the door was kicked open i was full of reluctance to see, not to say touch, a lifeless, decomposed, bloated and darkened body hanging from the ceiling with bundles of rafia strings tied a round the neck. there was an intensely foul smell of excretions and decompostition similiar to that of something like badly-seasoned salted vegetables and fish wafting in the one-room apartment. the face of the subject was not recognisable to the photo in the ic found in the wallet. due to the effects of gravity, the face loosened and became like that of a candle wax dripping towards the ground. the floor below the body was blackish maroon with occassional pools of yellowish fluids.
argh this is only the description how am i supposed to go on with the process.
ok so uncle bernard suggested that he will cut the rope, while a few other civil defence guys and i will hold on to the body while he does that. luckily nadiah was smart to bring a white plastic sheet big enough to cover the body so we did not have to touch it directly. ok so i acted brave and called those guys over. i could see the reluctance in their eyes, some of them were about to vomit as nadiah told me later on, but i guess my mind was too preoccupied with what we had to do and gathered them around the body so we could bring it down without causing anymore external injuries on it. boy was it HEAVY and there were lots of flies which came from the maggots flying around... ok so we brought it down and those guys left hurriedly towards the corridor. i too left to catch a breath of clean, civilised air......before returning back to the scene to wait for the investigator, the scene of crime unit, and the hearse to arrive, which roughly took about 3 tormenting hours in total.

PHEW i am glad this is over already. someone counsel me please.

it's the first day of december!

heeeheee and i spent it at home...
it's back to work tomorrow after a long break at home. i can really feel the lethargy and the reluctance...well been out quite a few times...to bugis, to vivocity, to orchard, but nothing fantastic happened. actually i yearn for a more adventurous outdoor outing sometime in the future. no more just walking along the streets looking and bumming around, but to really have fun. to really do something. to sweat it all out.
bah when can i go for choir practice. when can i join vj/vc for carolling. when tell me when.............

O Holy Night, Cantique de Noël

Adolphe Adam

O! Holy night! The stars are brightly shining;
It is the Eve of our dear Saviour's birth.
Long lay the world in sin and error, longing
For His appearance, then the Spirit felt its worth.
A thrill of hope; the weary world rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.
Fall on your knees! Oh, hear the angel voices!
O night divine, the night when Christ was Born;
O night, O holy night, O night divine!
O night, O holy night, O night divine!

i guess its not time yet, but it will come really soon.=)

it's the last day of november

it was just the end of the As a year ago.
had buffet dinner with my team at toa payoh cc and there were lotsa food, =), and the food was varied and delicious. however i have loads of mosquito bites on my arms and legs. BAH toa payoh CC is like one concrete mangrove! they should make a check on the water retention abilitiy of the building.
i am so forgetful finally managed to get my shoebag...slippers...and ridzwan's cds from my locker. how did i manage to forget to take them...must be because they are all placed on the top shelve.

after much deliberation, finally went for a haircut yesterday. and i am happy about it. Was doing some typing for my dad yesterday. BAHHH i hate typing for hours and hours its mentally tiring.
Oreo Cookies/Munchy's Chocolate Sandwich Biscuit with Marigold Milk is BRILLIANT.
O yar i am proud of marcus quek, who is sheena's brother, for doing well in his psle chinese. was rather nervous that day when he was getting back his results at school, and sheena was giving live telecast of the entire process through sms. hehehe looks like the hours spent reading passages for listening comprehension, doing (and marking) the dreaded compositions and comprehensions has paid off. :D

sentosa or east coast anyone? :D i miss my friends...

wonderful. totally wonderful. retail therapy is wonderful. YAY we should all work hard and make good money. i declare my europa tracktop my new wife. so don't touch it if you can if not you will get a bashing from me. if you are my girlfriend its a totally different thing of cuz. you get to hug both me and my wife.
ok shall stop talking nonsense.
O YA and i saw jing zhi today at bishan library. is singapore really so small. glad its small i get to see my friends every now and then without planning to meet. this is called 不约而同.

more coincidences in life.

spf seems to have complete control over me and its taking over my life at lightning speed.
well was doing duty for christmas lightup along orchard road, and i saw khairulnizam, lucas, gc, bentan, alexko, alexsim, chunyang, marcus. why do my friends get to party in orchard road on an weekend while i don't.... :( o ya lucas stop touching my belt and scrutinising my attire.
doing duty or shift work with chan is always an interesting and laughable occassion because we get to talk alot and joke alot and sing alot!
i am so shagged after 2 continuous night shifts. and more work is coming in tml. yay.\
i feel that someone tall wants to put me in a ridiculously difficult position.

corporate retreat

today's retreat was surprisingly interesting for me. ok maybe its because of all the bad and demoralising things other peeps told me about it. but to me the retreat was really quite an intriguing thing to have. even though it may be a little waste of time, but it is really great being able to get out of our usual social circles within the npcs and just get out and have fun with other people, and at least get to be better acquainted with them.
and the best part is that my team sleepy head (=P) won the challenge and all of us were definitely not expecting it. haha so fun to run about the entire afternoon looking for clues and doing crazy things at the stations. feels really great being the runner to bring our challenge result back to the base camp.
o ya and there were loads of food!!! :D --- morning tea break, lunch, afternoon tea break......haha made me soooo full.
ok so now i am officially shagged and stoning...

random let's conform to maslow's hierachy of needs.
i was thinking about...a modern choir.

stressed by

chorale postcard design;
boss saying my hair is long, even though i just got it trimmed, which links to
tml's retreat;
the lack of cash;
being unable to attend chorale practices;

saw these two puma and adidas jackets at marina square that faithful day. :) ok everyone needs money for Christmas cuz everyone needs to change their closets.

pumaadidasapple

i want a digital SLR. too bad i don't have a camera

finally i think the postcard design is done. thank yous to yen ling, yokie, terrence, dawn, chloe, yc, owen, for offering invaluable aid and comments and definitely the pirated stuffs which i shouldn't mention what on the sensitive cyberspace.

i am sure all of us will meet bitches and bastards at work. but yesterday night nadiah and i met one of the bitchiest person in urban singapore. she drives a subaru wrx and the repoman wants to tow away her veh because she owes the bank money. she talks loudly and retaliates verbally in an incredibly impolite manner towards us and vehement way towards the repoman. she is surprisingly retarded for a singaporean because she will say 'i don't understand a thing' everytime we say 'madam, please understand that...' she is soooooo evil even nadiah who is one of the nicest and friendliest officer around said that she is really a bxxxx. OK i shall stop talking bad behind people's back.
o ya it was a busy night shift.

marina square

is huGe! its like an orchard road within a shopping centre.

ok advert

project superstar

watched the first episode of project superstar on channel u. it was hilarious, and it also made me want to join a singing competition! HAHA

i heard the american democrats won the control of the house. is that true?
i need to purchase sooooo many things.

AND i went to have lunch at swensen's it was delicious. HAHA

book review

PAINS IN PUBLIC

the 50 people most likely to drive you completely nuts!

a very suggestive and provacative read that talks about bad social habits and ugly human behaviour outside of the warm and cozy home.

coincidence

was so bored with the day i decided to stop sleeping and get out of the house since there's nobody in the house other than me. no niece to look after. only left with silly monotonous stuff to do on the computer. so went to j8 with daniel. haha he was stuck at home with nothing to do too. arh so we went to J8 yet again and saundered. haha that was such a foolish thing to do maybe our aim was to catch a meal there at long john's.
I realise my coherence level is dropping. it is so cold i got a cold so my brain is going to freeze pretty soon.
oh then i met mr wong shou teik on bus 410 on the way back home. saw this strikingly familiar figure standing at the bus interchange and thought 'isn't that my classmate?' haha so we acknowledged each other's presence. and talked and blabbered quite loudly everyone was listening to our 'so you are in police force, slack right.' and 'so you are also some sort of a policeman.' conversation.
haha it was pretty amusing but the most interesting part was still being able to meet this old friend.

ok illustrative work must begin.
shall procrastinate no more.

grey angel

hur hur hur new skin... if only everyone can draw like this guy...
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credits to mlad and norraic @ deviantart

yeeeeha photoshop rocks don't you just have to agree with me....




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退后

周杰伦

天空灰得像哭过
离开你以后

并没有更自由

酸酸的空气
嗅出我们的距离

一幕锥心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记
榨干了回忆

那笑容是夏季

你我的过去
被顺时针地忘记

缺氧过后的爱情
粗心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后

信誓旦旦给了承诺
却被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过

最美的爱情
回忆里待续

christmas is barely 2 months away!!!!!

been having a rather nasty toothache these few days since i ate 3 bars of delicious kit kat 2 days ago but i have recovered from it already! ...ho ho ho...kit kat's nice but i guess i won't touch sweet stuff again for a month or two...