jianhao is sick of empty promises. he promises he will change! 12th May 2009 is important. it's really important. it made me realised how screwed up the way i am leading my life is. jianhao needs to change everything in the shortest amount of time possible before time runs out. don't worry i am still contented but just felt alot more responsible to everyone around me. i dun wanna be called joker-face anymore. i wanna be someone whom everyone can look up to (yeah those below 1.8m always look up to me anyway. :P)

...i dreamt of being a cartoon character in an anime, and i stole a chincilla (aka 龙猫, you know totoro? haha) from a bungalow house. I was hugging it so tightly and then was approached by a policeman. i was damn scared la. then he asked me what i was doing and i replied that i was walking and hugging my pillow. good thing is he believed me. after that i woke up with the intention of getting back to sleep so i can know what would happen next... but that didn't happen.