the eyes which saw death

smack on is now more mature, more understanding towards life.
i shadn't hide my fears anymore.
when nadiah and i reached the corridor outside the unit i was tell myself 'uh-oh' this is really IT.
an uncle then rushed by us holding a bunch of joss sticks, with his fingers pinching his nose, so that the smell could be mitigated by that of the burning joss sticks. ok la it was necessary but abit too much right it made everyone teared almost instantly.
when the door was kicked open i was full of reluctance to see, not to say touch, a lifeless, decomposed, bloated and darkened body hanging from the ceiling with bundles of rafia strings tied a round the neck. there was an intensely foul smell of excretions and decompostition similiar to that of something like badly-seasoned salted vegetables and fish wafting in the one-room apartment. the face of the subject was not recognisable to the photo in the ic found in the wallet. due to the effects of gravity, the face loosened and became like that of a candle wax dripping towards the ground. the floor below the body was blackish maroon with occassional pools of yellowish fluids.
argh this is only the description how am i supposed to go on with the process.
ok so uncle bernard suggested that he will cut the rope, while a few other civil defence guys and i will hold on to the body while he does that. luckily nadiah was smart to bring a white plastic sheet big enough to cover the body so we did not have to touch it directly. ok so i acted brave and called those guys over. i could see the reluctance in their eyes, some of them were about to vomit as nadiah told me later on, but i guess my mind was too preoccupied with what we had to do and gathered them around the body so we could bring it down without causing anymore external injuries on it. boy was it HEAVY and there were lots of flies which came from the maggots flying around... ok so we brought it down and those guys left hurriedly towards the corridor. i too left to catch a breath of clean, civilised air......before returning back to the scene to wait for the investigator, the scene of crime unit, and the hearse to arrive, which roughly took about 3 tormenting hours in total.

PHEW i am glad this is over already. someone counsel me please.